Loving the chaos in my life!!

When you get to about 2pm in your day, the world starts swirling around you, and you feel the stress level elevating. You know what I mean, you start sweating in places you didn't know could sweat, and you feel you have repeated yourself 900 times only to receive that blank stare that says, "I hear the words you are saying, however, I am choosing not to obey them...and I am going to pretend as though I don't understand what you mean." This is the life of a stay-at-home mom and day-care provider.

Have you ever just sat there and watched a child lick something and wonder what they are thinking? I watched a kid lick our leather couch. The first thing I thought was gross, that is so gross, stop, please, stop!!! Then I began to question the motive behind this behavior. Does it look edible? I mean, it is brown , like chocolate. Does it smell good? I don't know, I've never smelt it. I find myself curious to taste it. Then I remember, EWE, that's gross!!

"Stop licking that."

Yesterday I had the urge to leave my kids unattended, drive to the nearest gas station, buy a 40oz. adult beverage, sit in the parking lot and pray they would all be gone when I returned home. Thankfully I suppressed the urge, said a short prayer and then through God's help and amazing grace, I realized I love my job. I have the freedom to stay home in my yoga pants, be silly with the kids, and enjoy them thinking I am the smartest, coolest person on the planet!

Does God think it's funny to watch us try to understand children? I think so! The weird part is I remember doing these things as a kid. My husband and I call them douche moments. And if you think about it..."you have them too."

Like the other day, I caught my husband dancing in the garage all by himself. I think to myself, is this what you do when you say, " I am going to wash the cars today."? Probably. So, he doesn't see me right away, and of course, I don't announce myself. I can't really make too much fun of him, because I do this in the mirror, at least once a day:). Anyhow, he finally sees me and says,"So...you have douche moments too." You see, this is what marriage is all about. :)

Knowing these moments are what define us as people makes me realize how much God really loves us. If God can love me in all my "doucheyness", I can surely love kids through theirs!

"Keep on Licking, little ones"